I made the decision. I’m going to see a disability lawyer next week. That’s it. This is such horseshit. I mean really… I have been working for 31 years. I have given my money to social security for 31 years. And now all I want is my money back. I know this is all old news and that many of you have been in this very position. It just really pisses me off. The idea that SSA was created for our “own good”… it’s like a bank account in the gov’t bank and they are watching over our money for safe-keeping. Isn’t that how it was all proposed back in the Roosevelt days? “Americans still pay into Social Security while they work so they will receive money when they stop working.” We can’t be trusted to put money aside for our own care when it’s needed, the almighty big brother will do it for us. Horseshit. Because when it comes down to it, you can’t have your money back. Right? Can you tell I’m pissed LOL
I know of people living on disability who are not disabled… they work and get their monthly check. The jobs are cash jobs… unreported income… and drawing disability. WTF. In the letter I received it is writing that they can see I have limitations but that I am receiving treatment. And here is the kicker…
“Medical information shows that your condition is being treated. As long as you continue to follow your doctor’s orders, your condition should remain under control.”
Again, WTF? Who are the idiots looking over these things? Obviously they know nothing about the condition or they would know that with or without treatment, MS if far from “under control”…ever.
“You described various limitations caused by your symptoms and the evidence does show you have these limitations. We do not have sufficient vocational information to determine whether you can perform any of your past relevant work.”
Idiots. This is because they made their determination before they sent me the flippin packet in which my vocational information is listed. How is it that they can send out books of questionnaires for me to fill out, allow me to spend $25 fucking dollars to fax it back to them (because I don’t have a fax machine and had to go to Staples) – when they had already denied my claim… two weeks before they mailed me the packet??? Idiots. Idiots. Idiots.
Another kicker in all this crap is that in order to apply for & qualify for disability, you have to be unemployed. How in God’s name do they expect a person to live with no income while they play these idiotic games with my life? With money that I HAVE PAID into the system? MY MONEY.
Okay, I think I’m done ranting about this… for now LOL
I’m just so peeved. I better stop bashing big brother because for all I know they will do a background check on me and find all this stuff here. I don’t give a shit. This is the stupidest thing I’ve ever been through.
Otherwise, it’s been an alright day. Much improved over yesterday to say the least. You see, yesterday… ugh… I had to take Coach a light jacket (apparently it’s an icebox in the coaches office and he freezes in there… I offered an afghan to keep his old man legs warm but he declined), then I had to pick up a sack of feed for the pony. After that was done I headed home. As I pulled into our driveway, I immediately thought “Aw! How nice! Someone installed a fountain in my yard.” Nope. The fresh water hose that feeds the faucets inside the tin can… you know, the sinks, the shower, the toilet… had split and was gushing everywhere! I scooched on over to turn the water off and saw about a 2″ slit in the hose. Sheesh. I guess it’s just too hot out there… So back in the car and off to buy a new water hose line, came back home and switched out the hoses. It really wasn’t that big of a deal… but man! Do we have problems with water or what? It seems like all we have dealt with in the past 4 years are water issues… all the flooding, ruptured water lines, hoses, couplings, gaskets, and on and on and on… At least this time it was outside and it didn’t have anything to do with the tin can.
Coach’s team has their first scrimmage against another team tonight. It’s all very exciting! The inaugural season of the Vela HS Sabercats. It will be fun to see what type of team they have built. I know they have put in soooo much work. The coaching staff has been really committed to this new team. They are making history tonight.
P.S. Thank you all for your wonderful comments & support. It really means a great deal to me. And you have kept my chin up & shined the light of encouragement on my face… thank you!