Oct 282010
 

 

  • ok, so we all know i have MS…. time for me to get over it. i have realized that so many other areas of my life have taken a back seat to this beast, naturally… but it’s time to stop it. time to pull my self up by my boot straps and get on with living. that is my plan.
  • i have let school suffer, work suffer, family suffer, my home, coach… and the list goes on. not fair. to them or me. this MS shit is but one aspect of who i am…granted it’s a new one…something that i have to learn to adopt and adapt…it has now become one more descriptive characteristic of who i am as a person…nothing more. (sounds good anyway)
  •  my head is still pounding today… i did manage to go almost 7 hours before the horrid, clamping started. this is good! mucho progress today! and i found my mouth guard! this is huge! i was so lost without it…putting it back into my mouth this morning felt like coming home….dramatic i know…
  • i am applying for jobs. i have 3 applications out to 3 VERY good jobs… say some prayers for me!
  • and prayers for Dad too… he’s got a big one ahead of him… he’ll be fine… i have faith…but it’s going to be a tough road for a few months… love you Dad!
  • i’m so loving that i have the ability to write. really. it’s an incredible thing. i hope i don’t lose it any time soon!
  • i was asked to tell my diagnosis story beginning to end… congruently…guess i’ll start working on it. i assure you it will be one long – and most likely sarcastic – post… just click through if you don’t want to hear it all again… sorry
  • tomorrow is payday! for those of you who get paid once a month… you will understand the joy deep in my gut at that realization! money money money!

ok, time to head out… have some school work to catch up on… and some social networking of course….

Being an adult is like looking both ways before you cross the street and then getting hit by an airplane.

  15 Responses to “stuff that’s on my mind”

  1. *sigh* The job search with MS is tough. Even moreso when you’ve had to quit driving.

  2. >you know Karen, reading your blog has helped me more than anything i've found… and all the other blogs i have found through you have made such a huge difference in my mental state…. it's comforting in a sense…

  3. You have a great attitude, a job, sounds good!

    • things are good kim! i’m adjusting to the new me… sort of. it will take me some time i know but i will get there. it’s so nice that you are here… positivity is a wonderful thing! i love your blog btw…you are a very encouraging person!

  4. I love your attitude towards life. Good luck at everything! I lost my new nightguard but thank heavens I found my old one. I grind my teeth like no one’s business.

    • oh so you know how devastating it is to lose the ol mouth guard! i was beside myself looking for it…it was missing for about 4 or 5 days…. i have just ordered a replacement when i found it… so that’s actually a good thing… now i’ll have 2!

  5. MS is not who you are, it is what you have.

    You ARE a strong, intelligent, funny, and loving woman. MS doesn’t quite fit in with those characteristics. Ground yourself in love — for yourself first and then others. It’s going to be a tough road. And thank goodness time will be on your side. We will be here for you.

    • Thank you kj! I’m not sure how MS fits either…but I will find a way to make it uniquely me ha! I have such a great support system in real life and here too. I’m so grateful for you all!

  6. It’s only natural for something like this to be front and center in your life right now. As you said, it’s something you have to learn about and then learn to live with. I did the same with my diabetes. If you follow my blog much, you’ve probably noticed that sometimes I go on for days about my various ailments and then jump to what Rocky is doing, etc. On my bad days, I have to vent about myself. On my good days, it’s usually about something else. That’s just the way it is.

    • it’s so funny… i have spent so many years teaching myself how important right NOW is…. i have done all that i can to live in the moment for the past 15 years or so and thought i had it down… until i got thrown this big ol curve ball…. time to relearn some things…

      i know that i will continue to write about this MS junk…it’s now a large part of my life. and of course my blog is about me LOL i just have to remind myself to not be so all fire consumed by it all the time… i think it’s going to be tough….

  7. It will take some time Sherri, but eventually MS will not consume your every thought or action. I am coming up to my one year diagnosis date, and I am a lot more mellow with the MS thing now. I still have my days…but fewer. I agree with you “being happy and content is a choice” and I believe most people are as happy or as miserable as they choose to be.

    Cheers,
    Karen

    • you know Karen, reading your blog has helped me more than anything i’ve found… and all the other blogs i have found through you have made such a huge difference in my mental state…. it’s comforting in a sense…

  8. Oh sorry Sheri email me your full address to dublshot@comcast.net
    Kath’ at http://www.lilbitoldlilbitnew.blogspot.com

  9. Hi there Sheri
    I will keep you in my prayers. My Mom tells me daily to say in the morning out loud, “Something Goods going to happen to me ” and then the next day get up and say it all over again. ” Something Goods going to happen to me “. That is how we need to start eachday. I came here to let you know you are the winner from my blog contest. I have been busy to put up the last 2 prizes, but there is 4 prizes to this contest. If you can send me your name and full addtess I will get it out to you on Monday as tomorrow I can’t seem to get out with all thats going on here. Thanks for coming to my blog and joining in the fun. Kath’ from http://www.lilbitoldlilbitnew.blogspot.com

    • Hey Kath’ ! Thanks for dropping by! I wake up each morning and do something very similar… my mantra is “today I will be happy”… I say it every morning… and sometimes many times throughout the day as well…. I think being happy and content is a choice…. and that’s what I choose…. even through this muck of a mess I have chosen to be happy…and it’s worked for the most part… I have my moments in which I break down like a big ass baby…but oh well… 😉

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