My humanities course requires I write a personal soliloquy. Oh joy.
noun, plural soliloquies.
1. an utterance or discourse by a person who is talking to himself or herself or is disregardful of our oblivious to any hearers present (often used as a device in drama to disclose a character’s innermost thoughts): Hamlet’s soliloquy begins with “To be or not to be.”.
2. the act of talking while or as if alone.
So here it goes….
The sun rises in the east, so my parents were born
And as the sun sets in the west, so dying
The beautiful purples and oranges, the peaceful feeling of nightfall
My parents exude but I cannot absorb the grace and gentleness of a life nearing end.
There have always been two, and I knew some day there’d be one
And on another day there’d be none. And now there is only one day with none
Fast approaching… rocketing towards me… mere weeks will make me an orphan.
Can an adult be an orphan? Or just a lonely child… an adult parentless child becomes a ragamuffin.
Profound sadness, raging anger…my tears burn hot as grace runs away
My parents are dying, together…. but apart. 40 years divorced now
Together in sickness, yet still apart
Must they die at once, together…and if it must be, what becomes of me?
God calls them home even as I curse him… for stealing them away…
And I pray for forgiveness…and with the next breath curse again