Apr 222011
 

I don’t know where to begin this one…

The hovering black cloud is here… and getting darker…

something is going on again… with the MS I mean. I don’t like it. Not one little bit. Shit. I have mentioned that I have had this blasted headache for a long time now. I had one day a few weeks ago without it and what a blessing that was. Man. Most days the headache is pretty manageable… the antihistamine/Ibuprofen combination keeps it sort of under control. Til today. I feel like hell…

And it’s not just the headache… I really feel bad… not hurting or feeling sick. My legs aren’t working right again…just the right leg pretty much. It feels as if it’s been bored out and filled with lead…same for the right arm. I’m wobbly and weak. I feel as if I have no strength in the right hand… and the goosebumps… they are back. Just on the right side of my body. My appetite stinks. The hug is constant now… over the past week it has been intermittent.. now it’s constant… shit.

So I suppose I will sit on this for a few days and see what happens. My hope is that when I wake up tomorrow, this will be gone. I suspect it won’t be. And if by Monday I’m feeling the same or worse, it’s off to the neuro’s office.

Relapse? Hope not…

It’s been 8 months since my diagnosis… the odds are that it is a relapse… shit. Fuckin MS

Thank you all for the wonderful comments on my video ha! I’m not really one to do things like that…. no confidence in my self… and I don’t like seeing myself in that way… sort of like hearing your own voice when you listen to your voice mail… never sounds the way I think I sound… and on video or in photos, well, it’s not the way I look in my mind haha But, I’m glad that I did it, put it out there… and that you all enjoyed it. Coach watched it… he said I need to make one that’s funny. Apparently, I’m funny. I don’t really try to be funny… and I never thought of myself that way. I just say junk… and he cracks up. So I don’t know if I could plan funny for a video… maybe one day I’ll give it a whirl. My biggest problem is trying to figure out what to make a video about. What to talk about. Once I have a topic I can generally talk and talk and talk… as if that wasn’t obvious on the latest video ha!

Ok, enough rambling here… Bless you All!!

Being an adult is like looking both ways before you cross the street and then getting hit by an airplane.

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