i’ve been doing really pretty well the last few weeks. the symptoms that had caused me to seek medical advice were beginning to abate somewhat. i mean, they never truly went away…. but they were getting better in a sense. instead of feeling muscle weakness all the time, it was just a few times a day… and the tingly numb feet & hands was not constant… my speech was getting a bit better…my jaw was feeling no pain….
the past few days – probably starting on wednesday – i’ve been feeling it again. tiredness…doing the spoon count again. walking like a strutting peacock… or more like a chicken really ha! my speech is halting/stammering once again… and i’m so tired – oh wait, i said that already. the bottoms of my feet are tingling all the time once again. my arms feel like they are filled with lead… ugh. i even had to use my cane last night…first time in about 3 weeks.
the one thing i have noticed is that this all started with jaw pain…like the first time.
i don’t know if i’m having another relapse… i don’t know if it’s called a relapse only if it lasts for so many days…. i just don’t know much at all…except what i’m feeling….
i am really hoping this isn’t a real relapse (although i think it is)… i am really hoping that i get more time between relapses than 3 weeks…
i’m not complaining…. i’m happy, i’m good. i’m just writing…just documenting…just sharing what’s going on…
i search for the common denominators from day to day…. i spend time analyzing what i know and trying to figure out some pattern in my stuff…. i don’t know if that’s even possible to do…. but i try… it entertains me ha!
on another note… dad had double bypass surgery yesterday. he’s doing very well. thank you God. he was to be moved out of ICU this afternoon… i even got to talk to him on the phone for a minute or two this morning. i love that man… and i’m glad God saw fit to leave him here a bit longer… i’m not quite done with him yet! love you dad!