I’m sorta pissed off right now…. not bad…just sorta… so I’m going to take this opportunity to bitch a little bit…
you don’t mind do you?
of course not! after all this is the place for me to do that…. my spot…. so here we go
so I’m feeling like doggie doo the past month or so… nothing horrid or debilitating or life-changing… okay, life-changing it is… fuckin MS again….
but mostly I have this subtle, just under the skin crappy feeling… I’m off kilter… taking into account what my “new normal” is, my off kilter is pretty dramatic from what I would call feeling good… because you know, the definition of feeling “good” or “fine” has been altered significantly over the past year….
I can’t believe it’s been about a year since my eye-opening flare, the one causing me to seek help and figure out what’s really going on… once and for all…
anyway, back to me being sorta pissed….
this not feeing so hot has so much to do with being hot… not in a “I’m sexy, look at me” hot way but more of a “I’m sweatin like pig and smell like one too” hot way
and the thing that is sending me over the edge is that my employer is in financial distress (aren’t we all?) and decided that one way to save some money was to close up shop every Friday in July… as well as one full week the first of July which was a forced vacation… this is the first thing that pissed me off… I am sick, and I don’t know when it’s going to get worse… or when I might really need the time I’ve earned… and they are forcing me to use it… then I find out….
THERE WERE LOADS OF PEOPLE WORKING THAT WEEK! what the fuck… what happened to FORCED vacation… SAVING MONEY to help?
on Friday’s I mentioned that we are closed…this means we have been working 10 hour days 4 days a week, ending with a 3 day weekend… cool right? when I was healthy, this was the sort of work schedule I longed for….
it has beat me up
it has made me feel like doggie poo
FUCKING PEOPLE ARE WORKING ON FRIDAYS….
I’m wondering how much savings was actually realized from this forced schedule…. while I sit her feeling like doggie poo with very little personal time off left on the books….